WOW!  Do the days fly by or what?  I can't believe it's been a month since I posted anything!  As a friend of mine always says..."In my defense..."  That always gets under my skin, lol.  I could have made time, instead of crawling up on my couch which is currently my bed, and drifting off to sleep by 9 pm.  I'll admit it my friends, lately I'm beat.  I'm more than a little discouraged, I'm sad.

I've shared with you that I'm the next lay director for our Chrysalis church camp and from the moment I said YES to accept that position the enemy has been hitting me at every single turn.  Being the Lay Director is an important position and I've been in prayer over every choice I've considered in building my team.  I'm about 90% done, just have a few confirmations or declines to get and I need to add one more person.  I've been so blessed with the women and young ladies I've called to ask to serve, most have said yes, I've only had three decline and all for very good reasons, not that they needed to answer to me.  God uses the ones He wants there, I've been involved long enough to know that.  God has blessed me with so many loving friends in the Chrysalis and Emmaus community!

But as I said in my first paragraph, I'm beat.  I think my health is taking it's toll, and stress, that is taking a huge toll.  The neurosurgeon had to give me the worst case scenarios and of course the enemy jumped all over that.  There are two tumors, one is not a huge concern and should it need to come out is "easy" as my surgeon said.  The other is in a very delicate area next to the sagital sinus or the part that controls the blood flow to and from the brain.  It's not putting any pressure on it at this point, I pray it never moves from where it's at except to be completely removed by God's divine intervention!  but should it need to come out it needs to be done by a surgeon that has experience.  My guy, who is an amazingly skillful surgeon, has never done one and in his 30 plus years of experience I'm only the 3rd person he's ever seen with a tumor in that area.  Oh joy.  He suggested we fly to Denver as that's where the best surgeon is. I told him unless he's paying the air fare and the accommodations that's not a reality.  We laughed and he told me he'd be with me every step should something have to be done.  

I left there so upset, had a migraine, drove in the sun without my sunglasses (huge no no when I have a migraine) so instead of going back to work I went home and lay down.  I went to my PA later that day and she reassured me that God's got this, we're going to keep it monitored, took me off of the cholesterol medication as the hospital didn't do a fasting bloodwork before they put me on it.  We'd only just done fasting bloodwork 2 weeks before my TIA and my #'s were fantastic.  She did say continue the blood pressure meds as well as the low dose aspirin.  I left there feeling better, got hugs from all of the staff except the receptionist, she's one person I cannot warm up to, and vice versa.  But love it when my PA's business manager hugs me and tells me she loves me and my girls, we are her favorite patients and she says she doesn't say that to just anyone.   She's a hoot and it's worth the 30 minute drive to see them.  I know we are all in good hands.

Stress hits again when my Mom had to have an emergency hip replacement Easter morning.  She'd been complaining of pain, my brother took some time off of work and came down to take care of her then finally made her go to the doc, she got a CT scan and she'd somehow shattered the ball joint in the hip.  The surgeon told us it disintegrated in his hands.  She's doing so well, her attitude as the rolled her into surgery was awesome.  She told the nurses, "Let's get this done so I can go home."  God is doing miracles thru her, I still am concerned.

The last stressor is my relationship.  I'm not going into it on here as I owe him, and myself, that much privacy but I ask for prayers.  Something is very off and needs to be talked about.  Unless I feel from the Holy Spirit that tonight is not the time, tonight will be the time.  I love him so very much, I'm praying it can be worked thru.

Meg graduates in 20 days, that is so hard for me to imagine.  She's not out looking for work as she promised to do, I need all kinds of prayer my friends, just for positive movement in our lives?

A huge blessing did come yesterday tho.  I've been battling with the Dept. of Human & Family Services for weeks as to the whereabouts of my food assistance card.  Finally my local office said this was insanity and sent me one of their precious emergency only cards and it came in the mail.  I took the girls last night and we grocery shopped.  Finally, HEALTHY food in the house.  It's so sad that in this country the cheapest food is the worst for you!  Now maybe I can really work on getting this extra weight off of me, it will help my health so much!

Hugs to you all my friends.  I can't promise how often I can check in but I'm praying it is more often than once a month!

Blessings!
Lisa