Thursday, March 20, 2014
I've been absent a month, a little over a month...my sincerest apologies. You see, I was learning to dance in the rain.
Have had so many storms in the last several weeks that my first instinct was to wait them out. Honestly, just the thought of facing everything that was coming at me, being hurled at me to be sure, made me just want to keep holed up in my house, not do a thing. What was it that shook me out of my depressive tendency??? Scripture, Christian music, and Ravi Zacharias, lol.
I was driving home from cleaning my daughter's apartment (she and her roommates pitch in and have me clean it as they are so busy with school and work and church, there is no time~they really need to learn how to juggle). I had on Casting Crowns then decided to switch it to a christian station I like to listen to and Ravi Z was on and his message just woke me up and I felt the weight of the world that had been so heavy on my shoulders, lift away. It wasn't him, it was HIM. God used this minister's message and the music of my all time favorite contemporary Christian group to heal my heart, my soul, my life!
Now I'd been to the Casting Crowns concert just the night before with Ted and his son and his son's friend. It was an absolutely fantastic concert! They had For King and Country open for them, WHOA! Those boys have got so much better, close enough to headline for themselves, and they also had Laura Story perform, a precious young woman who has an amazing testimony of her own. I left there uplifted but then God really woke me up the next day!
“Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose trust is the Lord. He is like a tree planted by water, that sends out its roots by the stream, and does not fear when heat comes, for its leaves remain green, and is not anxious in the year of drought, for it does not cease to bear fruit.” Jeremiah 17:7-8 ESV
The heat has been on me, we did manage to find a car for Megan, but it has some issues that are going to be pretty pricey to fix. But, God's blessing in that is I have a fantastic mechanic who is handling it, who does not overcharge and I was able to talk down the price of the car! Blessing #2, we found a prom dress, pricier than I had hoped to pay but, well, it's Meg's senior year. I sent a copy of the receipt to my ex husband and believe it or not, he sent me $200. He is still not working, nor have I had child support.
All of these things I had to do really had been getting me down, plus my own feelings of unhappiness over how I felt my relationship with Ted should be going. But then last Sunday, when God opened my eyes, healed my heart, my feelings, my life, yet again. I am sure he's thinking ok, she's down, again, let's go fix this mess, lol! I lifted my voice in praise! I gave it all, everything, to HIM! I was still not able to find a decent enough house to live in, but gave that to God too. I felt peace for the first time in months.
Monday night I posted on Facebook on different groups what I was looking for. In 15 mins I had 2 women private message me. The one is the property manager for the owner of a few places, the other a woman living in a place she will be leaving soon. I took the girls and drove by both places. We liked the first one, I called the owner, and we met the next day. He asked where I worked, who I worked for and without making me fill out any paperwork said he liked me, just had a feeling and said it is yours, he even knocked $50 off of the rent!
It's perfect for us, the girls like it a lot, I am in LOVE with the house. Picked up the keys today. We can daily move things so that next weekend the big move won't be as crazy as the last. I have promised to stay 3 years, that is how long it will take for Alyssa to graduate. But I'll happily stay there 3 years!
He is always there my friends, no matter how many times we've messed up, let ourselves get downhearted, HE is always there!